your guardian angel

[shaylin elisabeth brennan]

i'll be yours forever

it had been a rough couple of weeks on the young blonde as she forced herself into a black dress and tried to do her make-up as minimal as possible. she could not believe how fast this turn of events had gone, but it was colbie’s mother. a woman who had looked after her and whom shaylin had become incredibly attached to. when cole had left she had still gone into check on the older woman, and hoping that some company would do her so good. as shay drove to the cemetery she could not believe that she was going to have to say good bye. it was hard enough to imagine her own good byes, but as her mind went to a certain man shay’s heart nearly broke in half. colbie had now lost both of his parents, and shay was worried about him. there was always going to be a certain draw to cole that she was not going to be able to fight, because she was always going to love him. there was never any doubt in her mind, even as she looked at brent who had to hold her and keep her together whenever she had received the phone call. now she was already late and stood trying to find where cole was, but she could not make it to him without causing a scene. instead she was forced to stand there with her arms wrapped around herself trying to keep it together as the small little congregation surrounded the grave site. there were a few familiar faces, but as the service wrapped up all shay could think about was cole and getting to him and being there. she knew he needed someone; she watched him carefully and waited for a moment that it would be okay to go say something. as she saw him walk back to where his mother was being lowered into the ground, shay came up beside him and laced her fingers in his and looked up at him with tears in her eyes searching for the proper words. “i’m so sorry cole, but i’m here.” it was simple, but that was all she had to offer him as she squeezed his hand.

tagged for: colbie parker loomis // word count: 376 // notes: so damn sad // credit: to luna love bug <3

[colbie parker loomis]

<sup>was this really happening? it had been ten years since he had been in this situation, and then he was actually glad. the death of his dad was a joyful moment for cole, seeing as it meant he didn't have to endure the abuse. but his mom? she was the only thing he had in this world that was always constant. she never once looked down on him. the day he had returned to arietta he witnessed that. he had expected her to scold him for leaving so abruptly and hardly keeping in touch while he was gone for three years, but instead she had greeted him with a hug that reminded him of the first moment he had ever met her. now, standing by her grave with her casket laying over it, cole didn't think he could ever deal with the fact that the woman who had stepped in as his mom when he was ten was no longer in his life. with a deep sigh, the twenty-five year old lifted his eyes from the casket and found a familiar pair of green eyes staring back at his. he gave a small smile before looking away from shay, finding it too hard to see her right now. it was her that he had been on the phone with when the nurse came rushing into the waiting room, saying that they were losing his mom. ever since that day, cole had been a zombie.

even now he had no idea how he had managed to plan the funeral and make the arrangements for her burial. as the preacher said the final prayer, cole closed his eyes and thought about the good times he had with his mom. when he opened them, he stepped over to the casket and kissed his fingers before placing them on the lid. he silently said goodbye to his mom for the last time. people began to file away, pausing to say their condolences to cole. he had felt like he shook and hugged too many people by the time they were all gone. he let out another deep sigh as he walked back over to his mom's grave and watched the guys working on lowering the casket into the grave. it was a moment before he felt a hand slip into his. his blue eyes tore away from the sight before him and landed on the face of shay. he tempted a small smile at her words, but nothing came. instead, he just looked back to the grave. "you know, my mom always loved you." it was true. when they had dated before, she had always talked about how much she liked shay compared to his other girlfriends. maybe that was why he found shay easier to fall for since he knew his mom would only like the right girl for him.</sup>

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shaylin aka amber -•- click for outfit -•- nothing -•- do not use</sup>

[shaylin elisabeth brennan]

i'll be yours forever

his was one of the hardest things that shaylin had ever had to do! she had never lost anyone that mattered to her, but here she was losing someone and having to stand there and try and be strong. this was not her mother but as she let her fingers intertwine with cole’s she knew that he needed this a hell of a lot more than she did. he needed her to be strong and keep it together, but how could she? shay wasn’t even strong enough to walk away from him, even now. the blonde knew that she should have left him years ago, but the thought of losing him and walking away forever hurt her too much. shaylin brennan was not that strong, and she knew that it would have been too hard for her to even try. feeling his blue eyes meet hers, she could feel the pain that ached in him. it was the same that was inside herself. his words did catch her a little off guard. shay knew that his mother had always had a soft spot for her, but what woman wouldn’t? shay had put up with so much from colbie and still stood there defending him. she would always be that woman for him, but she tried to smile but all that happened were tears sliding down her cheeks as she wrapped her other arm around her tiny frame. the blonde was having a hard time keeping herself together as she turned herself into colbie’s body and started to cry on his shoulder. “i love your mom. she always made cookies when i stopped to see her since you left. every time i was there, she made me chocolate chip cookies.” remembering that she started to sob and laid her head back into his shoulder. what a pair these two made, but shay still had no idea why this amazing woman loved her. shay had done nothing but love her son, and maybe that had been enough. but as shay lifted her head again, she leaned up on her tiptoes to capture his lips, but that was when she remembered that she had promised not to do that again. she met his beautiful blue eyes and lowered her own. “cole, i can’t do this. i can’t keep kissing you.” her voice was soft and barely above a whisper as she searched for her voice. “i’m kind of seeing someone. it’s nothing serious, but i can’t keep doing this to myself.” shay couldn’t do it because the guilt was literally eating away at her stomach and it made her sick to think that she had hurt someone as horribly as she was going to hurt brent when she told him that she had slept with cole.

tagged for: colbie parker loomis // word count: 475 // notes: so damn sad // credit: to luna love bug <3

[colbie parker loomis]

<sup>hearing how well his mom had treated shaylin after he had left only caused cole's jaw to tighten. his mom was such a good woman. he had never once regretted leaving town, but now he did. all he could think was that if he hadn't left, his mom may still be here. he could have seen the signs that she needed treatment earlier. hell, if not that, he could have at least been with her longer than he had. he was fighting off tears at all of these thoughts when everything was wiped away by the kiss of the blonde next to him. he had certainly been caught off guard, but he welcomed it all the same. shaylin had always been able to calm him down, and her kissing him was a way for him to be able to get everything off his mind and prevent him from breaking down. her breaking away, though, caused him to furrow his brow and listen to what she was saying. with every word he felt the anger grow in him. he felt as if he was regressing into the teen he had once been. the one that hit people without thinking. the one that had hurt the girl before him. he tried to think logically about things, but before he knew it, all of the work he had done was gone. he was teenage cole again. "you're what? how could you?" he was literally seeing red now and his mind wasn't thinking straight. "after everything i have fucking done, and it was all for you!"

cole took a few steps back away from her as he violently ran a hand through his slicked down hair, making it become the messy look that he usually wore. as he stood there, he couldn't believe that shay had brought this up now - of all the days! how could she do this to him after he had just lost the one person in his life that was constant? those thoughts were all he could think about and - without realizing it - he was soon next to shaylin again, but this time his hands were gripping her shoulders. "you stupid bitch!" with that, his right hand raised and made a sickening crack against her cheek. the noise nearly jolted cole as he staggered back. his jaw was dropped and his eyes were wide as he took note of what he had just done. had he really just lost control so much that he hit the one girl he had ever loved? tears filled his brown eyes as he dropped to his knees - still staring at shaylin in the process. he couldn't believe what had just happened. "i'm sorry." he whispered before more tears pushed through, making the others fall down his face. "oh, god. i'm so sorry!" these words were said louder than before. cole then raised his hands and covered his face as he sobbed, falling to the ground completely.</sup>

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[shaylin elisabeth brennan]

i'll be yours forever

there was seriously something wrong with her if she had just confessed to what she thought she did. here she was standing there at his mother’s funeral, and she had told him that she was kind of seeing some one else? shay seriously had to question her sanity on this instant as she thought about everything. her mind was blank as she tried to keep her focus on something other than what she had just done. she knew that kissing him felt so right, but there was something so wrong about it. shaylin should not care about him the way that she did, and she should not keep going back to him after everything he put her through, but there she was kissing him until that tiny confession slipped from her mouth. it was the absolute worst feeling that had ever crossed her. she was so stricken that she stood rigid as she looked at him, but his voice was what scared her. shay had not seen this side of cole since he returned to arietta, but this was just heartbreaking. it had to be the added stress of dealing with his mother and now with her confession, she knew it was too much. it was just too much for her to keep a secret like that from him. she tried to find words, but more importantly she was trying to find words that were not going to cause a fight with him. “you left cole, what was i supposed to do? wait around for you to come back? I still love you, but i couldn’t do that to myself.” yes she would always love colbie loomis, but she had not expected him to say that everything was because of her. it was just so far fetched, but it had not prepared her for what happened next.

when she looked back up at cole, there was something different about him. all of his soft features had been twisted in a way that she didn’t even recognize. shay knew that today was not the best day to bring this up, but what was she supposed to do? keep kissing him and lying to herself and brent? but she was not prepared for how he grabbed her shoulders. the blonde thought that he had gotten past all of this rage, but when his hand connected with her face. shaylin immediately stood there in shock and awe. her hand flew to her face as she was completely dumbfounded and tears stung her eyes. all she wanted to do was fall to the ground and dissolve; it had taken years to get over all of the abuse that cole had put her through and the tears were already sliding down her face. when she opened her eyes again, cole was staring at her with wide eyes. shaylin was a complete mess as she watched him as he realized what he had done to her. when she heard his apology, her heart ached for him to just stop and to realize that she was okay. more than anything she was just shocked and she knew that it was the stress of losing his mother, the one person who had ever been there. shay felt her body take over and found herself kneeling beside him and holding him close to her. “i know cole, i know. it’s okay.” she held him close, and let her fingers run through his hair trying to calm him down and soothe him. “i love you cole, i always have and it isn’t going to change.” hell, shay had put up with a hell of a lot worse than this, and more than anything he needed her.

tagged for: colbie parker loomis // word count: 628 // notes: so damn sad // credit: to luna love bug <3