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Post by sean carter hoyas on May 18, 2011 13:44:01 GMT -5
Sean still watched over the water for a bit longer then he grew bored of it he was going to just call it a night the whole night had been a nightmare that he wanted to end, but its was something that needed to happen and it was going to happen sooner or later and the fact that it happen now. Was just an indicator that there was still raw feelings there he looked over to where sarah had sathe watched as she rubbed her temples he was just as drained as she had been then he saw her get up and stumble to her knees as the waves hit her. He was quickly to walk over to where she layed as saw as she had been crying that was the one thing he didnt want to happen but when there was so much emotion and sincerty it was bound to happen he kneeled down infront of her and wiped away her tears "hey hey look at me its ok you dont have to cry" he held her in his arms as he tried to calm her down and she utered that she was sorry and how he was right about everything she had ran because she didnt want to face him. Had he been the route of the problem all along, was he the reason she fled the way she did sean only grew confused he didnt know what she meant by what she had said. "why would you have to run away from me?...was it my fault for our breakup had i done something to hurt you in such a way that you needed to get away from me?" Sean could only look back at their time together for all this time all he had thought was how happy they were and nothing seemed so perfect if things would have gone differently he would be preparing to marry her instead of ashley reality of it all he did love ashley but he is would and for ever be in loved with sarah nothing could ever take that from him. It wouldnt matter if she would have been half way around the world sean would find her and tell how he never stopped loving her.
Sean held onto sarah tightly as he just let fate take over her tilted her head and layed another kiss on her and it was full of some much passion he began to grow light headed from it. He intelocked his fingers with hers and kissed the top of her head and just whispered sweet things in her ear like he used to back in new york he tried his best to calmn her down and it seem to be working "I never stop loving you and never will i will always love you sarah i just need you to know that" he stayed quiet as he let the moment stay he wished this would never end but he knew that wasnt possible at least know they would be able to talk this out with out the yelling
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Post by sarah elizabeth benson on May 18, 2011 20:16:34 GMT -5
It probably wasn't the best idea to have knelt in the water, but she hadn't been expecting to get her clothes soaked and really didn't have much control over her actions. The tide was pushing her backward but she just flexed her abs and dealt with it. It probably wouldn't be so bad if the water wasn't cold. Then she felt Sean's presence and tried to get herself to stop crying. She hated to let him see her cry, but was not having much luck stopping. Even when he lifted her chin to face him. She looked at him for a brief moment before dropping her gaze while he tried to wipe away tears. It was worthless since more just spilled over but she didn't object. Control had grabbed the bit in its teeth and took off. When he then asked if their break up had been his fault she wondered if that had been his thinking all along. It wasn't not at all. She wanted to tell him that but let him finish talking first, using the time to try and compose herself. "No, it's not your fault. It's mine. After Noelle lost Jaydon....I just...I got scared." She watched Noelle,her best friend, crawl into bed never to get out. Jaydon was her Romeo and without him she could not live. "You didn't see her, Sean. I thought she was literally going to die of a broken heart and I was...afraid of that happening to me." But it wasn't until her mother's melt down that she left New York.
She felt Sean's hand reach under her chin once again to tilt her head until their lips met. Three years of absent kisses and they were making up for it in one evening, but Sarah did not object, having taken out her initial anger on his face the first time. In her mind this was still feeling to wrong and yet she found security in his arms. He was her rock and voice of reason when she needed it most, especially after her father's death. But then she started shutting him out and this is where they now ended up. Finally her tears seemed to have subsided, giving her an easier time of talking. "But that's not why I left New York." No, that was why she ended things with Sean, or tried to. He kept saying he still loved her all night but she never reciprocated the words. She couldn't find the strength to do so, even if she did, so instead she tried to talk through them. "Last summer, my mom was arrested for drug possession. Apparently it wasn't the first time either because she's been in jail ever since." Sarah still avoided Sean's gaze, busying herself drying her face then slid out of the tide enough so they weren't being pushed anymore. She was now soaked from the waist down and colder than before, but somehow just feeling Sean's arms wrapped around her made all of that disappear. "The city just became...to vast and empty, so I came down here." She felt so alone in the big city with nineteen million people.
notes ah, it was better the first time around, but i lost it and had to redo it lmao
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Post by sean carter hoyas on May 21, 2011 21:26:29 GMT -5
It was all becoming a whole lot clear now the reason for her depature from the city where was he to begin with noelle and sarah they had been the best of friends not even more like sister's sisters they shared everything together stories secrets clothes it had been that whole way since they meet. Sarah,noelle, jaydon,and sean had met back in junior high it was a rocky start but it was a start none the less they did minor intersactions during school but as the year went on they became more and more comfortbale with one another eventaully they would hang out after school and during the summer and did alot of bonding as they got olderthey started to develop feeling for one another jaydon and noelle for one another and sarah and sean now as much as they hung out they also just hung along sarah and noelle would go off and have their girltime and thye boys had guy time in which they all grew closer as they entered their final year of highschool everything had been perfect they were all getting ready for prom and had a blast dancing intaken pictures it was what high school was all about after there prom celebration jaydon was going to do something nobody excepted not even sean his best bro all four where out to dinner as thehy had been invited by jaydon and the place was pretty fancy. All four were in the middle of a wonderful dinner when right before desert jaydon got the whole resturan ts attention and then his focus was just on noelle he looked at her with such a gaze you could see how much love this person had for the other he got closer to her and bent down on one knee and out of his pocket to a small black box, and in that box was a ring not the flashyiest of rings it was a small but in his eyes it was the best he sought out when he spoke tears ran down his cheek as he expressed the love he felt for her and how he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her and asked for her hand in marriage.
Noelle starstruck and in shock took awhile for it all to sink in and moment shook her head yes as she took the ring and placed it on her finger and hugged jaydon and kissed him the whole room went in applause as sean and sarah. It was nearing the final weeks of their weeding that jaydon had flown out of town to go visot his dieing grandmother he had went to see her for the final time and as he was going on the highway tradgedy struck jaydon was driving back to his hotel when this truck hit him on the highway at full force and turned his car over no one ever saw the truck but from the impact jaydon had died in the impact with out a chance of survival when word got home about his death noelle hit it the worst going into the deepest of depesssion she didnt want to eat sleep or live for that matter and sarah had been with her the whole time trying to console her pretty much when sean got word it was to late sarah had bronken it up with him without reason and that would be the last he would see or hear from her for 3 years til now.
He hugged her in the way where she could tell he knew way she had done what she done but it was in the past this was the future he listen as she spoke of her mother and her arrest. So much had hit her in such a small amount time "im sorry about your mom and as for noelle and jaydon no one could ever forget but it just hurts me that when you felt empty and alone you didnt come to me you know i would have helped you out in anyway i could...trust me the whole thing with jaydon it still haunts me to this day but because of that it makes me realize how much i love you and nothing can or will change that again he lay a kiss to her so many times he wanted to kiss her and just hold her here in his arms the weather was geting cold sean looked over at her "do you maybe wanna come to my place and we can continue talking and sorting things out between us"? his tone was sincere there was still alot that needed to be said....
notes its ok its fine sorry it took me awhile my damn labtop keep crashing on me for some weird reason srry its suckish lmao
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Post by sarah elizabeth benson on May 22, 2011 0:25:49 GMT -5
Thinking of Noelle reminded Sarah of how deeply she missed her best friend. Being an only child, Sarah clung to Noelle like a sibling. For a couple weeks one summer she pretty much was, having moved in with the Benson's while her parents went on some trip Noelle was not allowed to attend. Of course, that was way back in probably seventh or eighth grade, but Sarah remembered it like it was yesterday. She wondered if Noelle did; if Noelle thought of those moments when it was so simple to find the good things in life. Now it was like a dark veil covered her eyes. Sarah felt guilty for leaving New York, leaving her friend to sulk on her own, but it seemed like it didn't matter whether Sarah was there or not. Noelle never seemed to pay any mind to her; she didn't even know Sarah was there. Still, she probably wasn't much of a friend anymore, not having bothered to try and call Noelle for some time. When she first arrived in Arietta she called quite often, but her messages were never returned. It wasn't healthy, mourning for so long in such a way. She knew Jaydon was "the one" for Noelle; the one every person on the planet waits a lifetime to find, but life went on. Apprently not for some. Still, the guilt settled in deep, so deep that Sarah couldn't go back now.
Bringing up Noelle and Jaydon also made her relive those moments of the four of them together, growing up and surviving high school. The restaurant where Jaydon proposed; where she hid that pang of jealousy toward Noelle and the frustration with Sean. Then the night of the phone call. It was one thing to hear Noelle's hystiercal voice on the other line, but to hear her mother's quiet, shaken tone was something engraved in Sarah's memory. That was more frightening than Noelle; she'd rather have heard Noelle. Sarah stayed up with her that night, holding her and rocking her like a young child. No words were exchanged between them; there needn't be. Noelle finally fell asleep, but Sarah could not. While Noelle was awake Sarah kept a strong face, holding her own tears at bay until the wall crumbled. She cried for Noelle, for Jaydon, and for her relationship with Sean that was still in tact. Maybe it was then she knew she had to break things off with him; finding it unfair for her to be happy while her best friend was in such terrible pain. The fear of the same thing happening just coming as an after thought. Who knew, she certainly didn't. Everything just seemed to happen so fast after that moment.
This all flashed through her mind now, bringing a new round of tears to her eyes, but these were silent and gentle as they rolled down her face, dropping onto Sean's shirt as he held her close. Her eyes closed briefly, finding solace in his embrace. What was she thinking, shutting him out and not accepting his return, something she obviously waited for. She knew he would have been there; they could have been there for each other, and as a team for Noelle. Yet, she chose to suffer alone. For the first time that night, Sarah returned Sean's embrace, wrapping her own arms around him. She held him to her, memorizing the feel of him against her, remembering the other similar times those years ago. "I'm sorry. I never stopped to think of how his death would effect you. I was too worried about losing my best friend because of it... which I couldn't help anyway..." Her voice trailed off as she turned her face into his chest after they exchanged yet another kiss. She did lose Noelle and would probably never get her back. When he suggested they go back to his place to continue this conversation, Sarah nodded into his shirt. "Okay." She wasn't in the mood to go home, but was too cold to stay outside any longer. Yet, she was having trouble moving and just wanted to stay right where she was in Sean's arms.
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Post by sean carter hoyas on May 23, 2011 19:06:39 GMT -5
Sean still held on to her as he never really his grip the as she agreed to go back to his place so they could get out of the cold weather they were both drenched in water and it was getting colder they need a change of scenery and some warm clothes maybe a cup of coffee with a blanket or two as he could start a small fire in his fire place and just finish the talk. Sean slowly began to lossen his grip as her stood up and reached out for her hand "come on my place isnt that far plus you are shivering dont want you to get sick" Sean grabbed onto sarah as he puled her to her feet and the both walked towards the pier and then towards his bike he took his helmet and place it on sarah's head and strapped on as he got on and turned the bike around "hold on tight its going to be a bumpy ride" he let out a small chuckle as he got onto the road and hit the gas a bit as he began to pick up speed they left the boardwalk as he made a quick left followed by a right and stayed on that path for at least 10 mins. Sean came to a holt as he had stopped at a small loft looking building in which he now a days he called home. It was glamorous or anything it was big a roomy kinda like a country feel to it the front of it looked a whole lot better since he moved in because he seem to care for thr front yard when he first received it the place looked like something that a horror movie. Trash was everywhere he had taken the time to actually clean the place up and have it the way he had it now. If he was going to live here then he might as well put in the effort to make it look nice so after the grueling hours he put in the shop fixing cars he would later come home and work on the place little by little. Ever since he was little sean was a do it yourself type of guy never liking or wanting to ask for help from anybody in most part it was his stubborness and pride that got in the way. But it was the type of person hes molding himself to be and up to this day he was a very hands on handy guy...what more could a woman want from her man.
Sean parked the bike as he helped sarah get out and he walked to the front of the home and open the door as he turned on the light the inside of the loft was very clean and tidy as sean like it in some way sean had always been a bit of a clean freak.[color-blue]"so this is the place i been calling home for the last 3 months make yourself at home im going to go get us some dry clothes so we could get warm'[/color] he closed the door behind them as he walked up the small stairs what little space he had near the corner he had made a living room with a couch and table and on that table was a picture of him and sarah it was the only one he had of them and he had it as the cneter piece on the table. aside from the couch and the table there was a fireplace and not as long as he had left he came back with some dry clothes and blankets as he made a small area near the front of the fire place he walked over to wher he had left sarah and handed her one of his old shirts and a pair of sweats "here put these on and ill get some firewood to start a fire i wont be long he said with a smile smile and a kiss as he walked out of the loft for awhile...Sean returned 15 mins later with a small pile of wood and threw it in the fireplace as he lit it and the fire began to more instaly given them some much needed heat he looked over at sarah and took a seat on the set of blankets he had place in the floor before.
He waited for her to come and take a seat and as she did he began to kiss her again gently, so much kissing had been done by the both of them but it was something he couldnt help but do. he placed his hand on her cheek as he deepen the kiss a bit more as he stopped it and they were just a few inches apart "you dont have to be sorry about leaving when you did i understand why you did and its in the past now lets focus on the future"that was the last thing he said in mid whisper as he kissed her yet again...
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